sad+weird

i am updating this at Doha International Airport. i got seat besides the window. that thing remind me about my 3rd bro. he always fight with 2nd bro to get that seat!(tp yg 2nd tuh die saje je nk berebut.bukan nk seat tuh pon. ok2 let us get straight here

im sad actually when i look outside the earoplane window, i am leaving Egypt.for god sake after 3 times trial!. the sandy and problematic country, atlast im leaving you behind. but i do love Egypt. play back memories when the frist time i know im going to Egypt, i will study hard and clean all the mess i had done. then one question pop up from my brain, 'why do you choose Egypt on the forst place?'. its hot, sandy. arabs, full of liars and not to mention dirty. but all of these things manage to reborn ariff haikal.

Ya Allah, thanks for choosing me to be here, at this full of barakah sandy land. thanks for evrything. hopefully i can be who am i.

owh balik kampung!

Man. U jersey is fitri and the Chelsea one is apai

last year my parent went to China without their beloved sons! they dont mean it tho..they have booked ticket for us but last minute there was a wedding invitation from kampung. so we have to be their representative. so i want to share with all about ibnu mahdis's sons journey to Jitra, Kedah.

now i will introduce the main actors. first of all my second brother name Ariff Fitri but just call him Fitri. the second actros was Ariff Muzaffar, which is my third brother and we call him apai.last but not least, ME.

at first my mum asked, 'nak naek flight?'. me 'no thanks.dari form 1 naek bas. why dont i teach those 2 budak naek bas.'. so my dad bought us 3 tickets to Jitra. its a bachelor's trip. so no outside help such as 'mak teh! tolong hantar kat hentian duta?' or 'mak lang, tlg kami nk blk kampung.hantar smpi hentian duta?.'. we can stand on our own

so the day has come. after having Nasi Lemak Ayam, we took a metro bus to Pasar Seni or Central Market. from there we find another bus to Hentian Duta. alhamdulillah we manage to be on time. but sadly our bus delay. we have waiting for an hour then fitri start to loss his confident. to be honest he the most 'gelabah' person in our house and low confident level. so he asked me to go to the counter and ask about our bus. so i just go and ask but that guy said 'lambat ckit dik. bas ade problem'. fine..

after 30 minutes fitri become more gelabah, this time he afraid to ask me for the second time. so he use my third bro

fitri : apai..ko pergi tanye la bas kite nie.

apai : ko kan abang.ko la tanye

fitri: ko kan berani. kalo ko pergi aku beli ko chewing gums

apai : ko ikot belakang aku.aku pergi la

fine..they walked together. but when getting near the counter. fitri just stopped and apai didn't even realise, he asking the counter man alone. dah la apai lagi pendek dari counter table.

after 1 hour and 45 minutes of waiting, our bus have arrived with tag Jitra/Changlun. so i just go to the bus, but again fitri bring up one thing 'eh! nie bukan bas kite.kite pergi Jitra je.'.. i said 'hang tak mau naek tak pa.aku naek'. then apai added 'ntah fitri nie. ade tulis jitra.naek la'. at last he followed the two of us. after 5 hours on the bas. we arrive at Jitra.

our story doesnt ended there, this time on our way back to K.L

after salam all our relative, we have a save ride bcak to K.L. but the promblem now, how to get out from Hentian duta using public transport?. actually there are Rapid KL buses, but we all ready wait for an hour and no bus at all.hoho. so the three of us discuss something :

Me : ok.duit kite lebih RM 400. kalau tunggu bas.kene pergi Puduraya balik. tapi murah. so bley joli sorang RM 100.tapi kalo naek teksi.kurang la ckit kot

Fitri: eh haikal.aku cuak la naek bas.teksi jela sampai umah

Apai : kite tungu bas la haikal.aku nak makan KFC la duit tuh.

Me : kite tungu 15minutes. kalo tak de bas.naek teksi la.mlm nie aku call KFC smpi umah je

at last we take a taxi straight to our home sweet home. to be honest the most "kedekut" between 3 of us usually will be fitri. but at that time i am suprise apai the one yang kedekot.lapa sangat kot.haha.

THE END

Qudsi 4 : NO turning back?

Dont blame your self

if some on step on my foot. the first word will come out must be 'hey!' or if i can control the anger my heart will say 'its painful man..can i step on ur foot back?' and if that guy did apolagise with 'sorry'. will you forgive someone just because of those 5 letters? i am very sure its hard thing to do right? that work on us as a human being. but not our god Allah. The Most Gracious, Most Merciful and the one and only that can forgive all our sins. sometimes, even you cant forgive your self but HE allready forgive all your sins as long as you dont worship HIM with anything else.

Kecuali orang-orang yang bertaubat dan memperbaiki (amal buruk mereka) serta menerangkan (apa yang mereka sembunyikan); maka orang-orang itu, Aku terima taubat mereka dan Akulah Yang Maha Penerima taubat, lagi Maha Mengasihani

Surah Al-Baqarah : 160

Yesterday i search for one song entitle 'Anybody There' by The Script, then i read quiet intresting comment;

'this song is about wanting to be good but why to be good if no one around you is? and if you took the right path and got to heaven would you really find anyone like you in there?'

i stress out this particular part "got to heaven would you really find anyone like you in there?". do you think heaven is for someone who perfect? always on the right path? never committed any sins?. well all i know only Prophet are protected from committing sins because Allah help them. meaning no bodies perfect and the one that will enter heaven also have commited their own sins. dont put our self so low until we think 'why should i pray for HIS forgiveness because i know i will do it again and i am a bad person'. because Allah always open HIS arm waiting for you to come back.if not, why all the solehin and solehah crying every nights to seek HIS forgiveness allthough they commit sins everyday

Katakanlah (wahai Muhammad): Wahai hamba-hambaKu yang telah melampaui batas terhadap diri mereka sendiri (dengan perbuatan-perbuatan maksiat), janganlah kamu berputus asa dari rahmat Allah, kerana sesungguhnya Allah mengampunkan segala dosa; sesungguhnya Dialah jua Yang Maha Pengampun, lagi Maha Mengasihan

Surah Az-Zumar : 53

if we still cant forgive our self..here is one Hadith qudsi. do we think we bad enough? Allah can forgive everything

Narrated Abu Said Al-Khudri (may Allah be pleased with him) : He quoted Prophet Muhammad (may peace be upon him) as saying to his companions that : a man from among the early people or from those before you had said a word, i.e Allah had blessed him with wealth and sons. When death approached him, he asked his sons : How was i being a father? They replied : You were the best father. He said : I didn't save or perform any good deeds for Allah. If Allah takes possession on me, He will punish me. So look! when i am dead, burn me until i become coal then crush me well and scatter (my ashes in the air) on a stromy day. The Prophet (may peace be upon him) said : He took a covenant from his sons (and died). They did according to his will and spread his ashes in the air on a stormy day. Allah, the Exalted, asked him : O my slave! what induced you to do what you did. He replied : It was YOUR fear (so i may not appear before you). The Prophet(may peace be upon him) added : Allah the Exalted rewarded him with HIs Mercy ; the Prophet(may peace be upon him) said second time : Allah did not punish him

(This hadith is sound and reported by Bukhari dan Muslim)

the thing is, maybe sometimes we do blame our self after doing salat taubat.because we do the same mistake again and again. but dont lose hope. as long we fear of HIM, insyaAllah HE will help us get through.

STAROBA Weekend

it is a tradition. after 20 years you leave the school. your batch will come back to the alma mater and organise an old boy weekend. it should be 'durian runtuh' for the current student because they can have free dinner with artist usually. depends on how 'big' the members of the community raise the fund for this 3 days 2 night vacation. the main point is to give back something to your school. usually the old boys will have a talk with students about their occupation and student's ambition.

here are some reason why the old boys dying to come back to their beloved school and why the student treasure this weekend

student(when im a student actually)

1. every year during grand dinner, the old boys will invite artis to perform that night. huhu! the only chance to see beautiful women!

2. for sure makan free right? the grand dinner usually on saturday night

3. rugby match with STAROBA Orange (alumuni team)-in our head 'jom kalahkan bapak-bapak orang yang macam tong drum ni'

as an old boy

1. i miss my friends. its like mini reunion for us

2. come back to school then recall all the nakal moments

3. rugby match with STAR's Ruggers-'alah, anak ayam je budak-budak nie'*can you see the different mentality between the oldboys and student?*

4. the only time that you can be 'nakal' again with out your wife beside you.

i really want to join this year Old Boy's Weekend (OBW) but then Allah say it is better for me to stay here at Egypt. never mind. He know if i go back to Malaysia i will join the STAROBA Orange rugby team. haha. to my juniors, sabaq noe! aku sampai nanti kite main futsal dalam dorm. persetan prefect yang skema! haha. joking jaa..

Qudsi 3:Life's but a walking shadow

out of two times i performed funeral prayer at Masjid Rabiatul Adawiyah this week, but i never help the jama'ah to hold the coffin. i don't know why actually. but i just cant! my heart telling me to but my body wont move.

why did i act like that? everything on earth will die eventually. HE the only one that can live forever and ever. no matter how fast i can run on even i tried to escape using aeroplane. i just can't escape from my own death

Katakanlah: "Sesungguhnya kematian yang kamu lari daripadanya, maka sesungguhnya kematian itu akan menemui kamu, kemudian kamu akan dikembalikan kepada (Allah), yang mengetahui yang gaib dan yang nyata, lalu Dia beritakan kepadamu apa yang telah kamu kerjakan".

Surah Al-Jumu'ah : 8

if we can choose to pick up our death date, is there anyone will say 'the earlier the better'? put a side the one who performed suicide, but there were people that choose to meet with HIM earlier such as Prophet Musa

Narrated Abu Huraira(may Allah be pleased with him):

that Allah's Messenger said (may peace be upon him) : Once the death Angel come to Musa and said to him : Respond to the order of your Lord. The Prophet said (may peace be upon him) : Musa hit the angel over his eye and gouged it out. The Prophet added (may peace be upon him) : The angel returned to Allah, the Exalted, and complained : You send me to a slave who does not want death. Rather he has ganged out my eye. The Prophet said (may peace be upon him): Allah set the angel right eye and said : Go back to My slave and ask him : Do you want life? if you wish to live long, put your hand on the back of an ox. The more hair you grasp in your hand, the more years you will live. At this Musa said (may peace be upon him): Then what will happen? The angel said : Then you have to die. Musa Said (may peace be upon him): it is better to die now. Then he invoked Allah : O Lord! Let me die near Holy Land by a shot of a stone

(This Hadith is sound and reported by Muslim)

the main question here, am i ready to meet HIM? is it enough what have i done before as HIS servant? is HE satified with me? how much actually my solat that counted? gosh..im not ready yet. by the way i not married yet and dont have a child. who will pray for me after death?

Apabila mati anak Adam, maka telah terputuslah amalannya melainkan 3 perkara ; Sedekah Jariah, atau Ilmu yang memunafaatkannya, atau Anak soleh yang mendo’akan keatasnya”

Hadith diriwayatkan oleh Muslim, Abu Daud, Tirmudzi, al-Nasaa'i, dan al-Bukhari.

strictly dont abuse this hadith by using it for asking your friend to pay for you like this "pok jat, belanja lah aku teksi.kite nie bujang lagi.mane ade anak nak doakan kite kalo dah mati.yang tinggal hanye sedekah dengan share ilmu bermanafaat je"

then the second question is, what will happen to my family? my parent, can they handle this thing? after my second brother left us before this..they also put high hopes on me to look after my siblings if they go first. but i will not be there..owh Allah. please help them and i know YOU will.

lastly,i am the type who like to left something for future *in a good way ok! it is not like farting then leave the spot! haha* if there anything i left for my family? no i think..just picture albums and memories that is all. for people around me? if there anything i have done bad to all of you? please forgive me. then for islam? owh man..what a tough question with simple answer..i have done nothing to help islam rise again..Ya Allah.forgive me for this.

so my friend, let us confront our fear, think about our death.creepy right? haha. can i make a wish? i want to die at Makkah if it is not to much for asking..i know even Prophet Musa dont ask for this..but nothing to lose by asking this.

lovebirds

i write this thing because i am part of it before. basically this is a monolog. here how it works. i will question my self and try to answer all the question that pop ups in my mind with honesty . then my sarcastic mind will do his job. my point is, if you were having couple right now. why don't you ask your self these question. and if you can answer the sarcastic mind. i think insyaAllah you on the right track

1. why do you need a pair?

my answer : i don't know actually, but i do think it's a normal process for a teenage to have a special girlfriend/boyfriend. and if we don't, we have lost the excitement as a teenage. we are young, in a good shape. so why don't give a try. by the way to have a partner that will asks you "have you eaten?", "hey don't play rugby, its dangerous!". its kinda fun to know that someone care about you

sarcastic mind : to think back, is that all the reason for a homosapien need a partner? to know that someone care about you other than our family? do you think she/ he still care about you after you hurt them?

2. is it fun couple?

my answer : indeed! you will get someone that can makes you laugh!. then you will have sushimate! that will eat with you. then i saw my friends are all happy with their love one!. so it does prove that its fun to have couple right?

sarcastic mind : is it a couple if they don't argue to one another? or is there no tears during couple time? insist sometimes couple argue about small things such movies genre or even sitting place at mamak stall!

3. Why do you like her?

my answer : because she's talkative, independent, tend to do something weird but clumsy is the right word.

sarcastic mind : why don't you find someone that can makes you think about Allah and you can picture Prophet Muhammad when you saw her/him?

4. can you leave her?him

my answer : i cant. she is my everything. but i do get over her right now.

sarcastic mind : so you want to tell me that before you meet her, you don't really exits?

5. do you think by doing this "couple" thingy can get you closer to HIM

my answer : it should be if we were married. but im not. and i think to have a partner that wants to be your everything wont help you at all.

sarcastic mind : find someone that cant like to be at the second place you mean? because you want to put Allah, Prophet Muhammad and Parent first. is that what you were telling me? do you thing that girl really exits?

6. do you want to find another one?

my answer : i will. and i am. but if i found one. i will keep it to my self. not the right time yet

sarcastic mind : does it gona lead you to zina hati? and the feeling will grow day by day until you cant hold it anymore. what you will you do that time?

in conclusion, find the right one, wait until the right time.may Allah help me.

Qudsi 2 : Belief weight an atom?

Narrated Abu Said Al-Khudri (may Allah be pleased with him):

Allah Messenger (may peace be upon him) said, None of you will have argued for his right in the world more vehemently than the believers who will do with their Lord about their brethren who were admitted into Hell. The Prophet(may peace be upon him)added : They will say : O Lord! Our brethren used to offer prayers with us, observe fast with us and perform pilgrimage with us. But You cast them into fire. The Prophet(may peace be upon him) further said : Allah will day : Go and bring out whoever you know from among them. The Prophet(may peace be upon him) said : The believers will come to them and recognize them by face. some of them will be those the fire would have seized up half of their shanks and some of them up to their ankles. They will bring them and say : O Lord! We have taken out those for whom you gave us order. Then The Prophet (may peace be upon him) said : Allah will say : Bring out whoever has in his heart any beleif weighing a Dinar. Then He will say : take out whoever has in his heart the belief weighing half a Dinar until He will say : take out whoever has his heart the belief that equals the weight of an atom

(This hadith is sound and reported by Nasa'i and Ibn Majah)

cant we see through this hadith how great Allah's forgiveness are? He can forgive you even if there an atom of believing in you towards Him. i also don't know how to put in maths a bout belief weight an atom. but how small we want to go? is there anything smaller than an atom? ist that hard to have faith in our Creator? here i share one story about a man and his god. how his mouth said that he believe in his god but..just read the story 'A Climber"

The night fell heavy in the heights of the mountains and the man could not see anything. All was black. Zero visibility, and the moon and the stars were covered by the clouds. As he was climbing only a few feet away from the top of the mountain, he slipped and fell in to the air, falling at great speed. He could only see black spots as he went down, and the terrible sensation of being sucked by gravity.

He kept falling and in the moments of great fear, it came to his mind all the good and bad episodes of his life. He was thinking now about how close death was getting, when all of a sudden he felt the rope tied to his waist pull him very hard. His body was hanging in the air.

Only the rope was holding him and in that moment of stillness he had no other choice other to scream: "Help me God".

All of a sudden a deep voice coming from the sky answered, "What do you want me to do?"

"Save me God".
"Do you really think I can save you?"
"Of course I believe You can."
"Then cut the rope tied to your waist."

There was a moment of silence and the man decided to hold on to the rope with all his strength. The rescue team tells that the next day a climber was found dead and frozen. His body hanging from a rope. His hands holding tight to it. Only one foot away from the ground.

im leaving THE jet plane

(bujang lapok! tak dapat balik raya)

i should be in Malaysia right now, maybe having dinner with my family. thats the most percious thing for me. but instead of that, im having my transit at Zagazig for 2 days because im stucked at the airport last night. the problem was, my travel agent already pay and booked for V seat, but inside the Egypt Air data they said mine was Y seat which is much much more expensive and they want me to add on another 2000 L.E on the spot. what the heck man! but Allah knows better.

Allah! There is no god but He, the Living, the Self-subsisting, Eternal. No slumber can seize Him nor sleep. His are all things in the heavens and on earth. Who is there can intercede in His presence except as He permitteth? He knoweth what (appeareth to His creatures as) Before or After or Behind them. Nor shall they compass aught of His knowledge except as He willeth. His Throne doth extend over the heavens and the earth, and He feeleth no fatigue in guarding and preserving them for He is the Most High, the Supreme (in glory)

Surah Al-Bakarah : 255

this thing doesnt happen to the three of us(amin, naim and me= bujang lapok tak dapat balik kampung) only, but it happened to the other passengers also. about 11 Malaysian and maybe around 6 arabs. the weird thing happen to 3 Malaysian. all of suddent, they can check in after a long fight. then another 2 malaysian just pay the 2000 L.E and also 3 arabs. now leave the 5 of us(2 girls from Mansurah and bujang lapok).

wanna know what excatly running inside my head that time?

1st. is this real?

2nd. finding the reason why should i feel sad

3rd. hrm..do i have to fight with the travel agent?

but all of that tought diminished by the girls tears. pity them..haiyo..this thing shouldnt

have happen to them la.

but alhamdulillah, i learned something from all this

1st- i saw, on of the girl whit free face(not wearing prudah) crying while prasing to

our Prophet Muhammad. i was like..wow this girl..(selamat la tue dari kami.hehe.kalo tak..)

2nd- i know if all give me this, then HE will help me get through this, insyaAllah

3rd- i know i can trust my friend. eventhough he have an exam but he still want to help

me(Uzair)

4th- i slept at Masjid Rabiatul Adawiyah before zohor today due to lack of energy. im

happy because i really adore her!

last but not list, this is the mother of all which is DEATH!. after performed salat Zuhur at Mosque Rabiatul Adawiyah, the iman said, we will do funeral salat. just imagine how lucky that man inside the coffin? the whole mosque salat for him. at that point eventhough i have ticket problem and a little bit down, but HE show me that, i should be greatful because HE still give me the chance to do taubat, and pray for my parent atleast. if im the one inside the coffin?..

lastly, i get another ticket on 6th July, hopefully wont be another problem.please pray for me..

and credits to Bakan Perak for letting me to get some rest there, to Uzair for always there to help me.thanks STARIAN. and Khairullah as our tour guide to Bakan Selangor

i love Egypt

this is my 100th entry and propabbly will be my last post in Egypt for this year,

but i will still continue my writing about ahadith Qudsi while im in Malaysia.

in this post i will share with the readers, why i love Egypt so much especially Zagazig.

because, here is where all the amazing and miracle things could happen.

before i came here, i have probs my leg , i cant stand on my feet to perform salat for even one

rakaat, but alhamdulillah now the pain is still there but only 10%. i dont know how this thing

could happen.

then i do learned a lot from Egyptian.

dont you laugh at me because i do learn about love from the Egyptian.dont you see how they

laugh together after a real fight? thats what we call love my friend. then i amuse to see how

they love Prophet Muhammad, if you meet with Egyption there always gonna say sollualannabi meaning

praise Prophet Muhammad and his family. and last but not least how they love ALLAH, where on you will find

everytime your class will start with,'praise to your God because HE let you alive untill now' or 'subhanallah,

how details Allah's creation was'

actually, i dont mind to settle down here for a while, to teach my children-to-be insyaAllah how hard life can be,

to teach them how to be greatful with what they have.

owh..i love Egypt thats all i can say

trust me you wont find this in other places,

1. Your landlord come and feed you with ish bread(arab's bread) that she keep inbetween her arm pit. this happen 3 days after i landed here.

2. A guy holding tasbih while shoping at City Star(happen to be the biggest Shoping mall in Africa)

3. a grandpa holding his grandchild, but this little kid was so noughty and he slaped his own grandpa's shinny head 5-6 times.but the grandpa just smiling.(at book fair Cairo)